I am sorry for putting you through stress and anxiety. I am sorry for the shaking and the tears. I did not know that you were strong enough. I didn’t have faith that you could do better than this. I trained your brain to believe this was love, to hold onto it so tightly your knuckles ached. Nobody else could love you. I let you become so small, fragile and weak. Unsure of your own opinions and own thoughts, constantly over thinking your own values and who you were until you became so lost. I allowed you to be brainwashed with “I’m sorry” and “You make me act like this” and “I love you”. I allowed the cruel words to be spit at you, I allowed you to break. But that’s what I had to do, these things are what helped you grow. You grew and became strong, you realized your worth and you left, because you ARE worthy of love and kindness. I am sorry that it took you so long to come to terms with it, but you found it on your own. The tears are dry now, you are okay. I will never allow a man to step on you again, to spit at you, to yell and scream. You are not small.
I have learned to love you, even on bad days. The mirror is your friend, you are wonderful and happy and full of life now. Keep it. Hold onto this. This is love, self-love.
Now, I am writing this as a happily taken girl, so there will be a *little* bit of bias here and there.
To start the conversation, why is Valentines a holiday? Well, this day is known for its romance and celebrating a couples love through gifts, dates, flowers etc. to name a few. But in reality, Valentine’s day and where it came from is actually quite morbid. It’s history revolves around Christianity and Lupercalia which is an ancient Roman fertility festival (what?!) that is held from February 13th to the 15th which is said to be the reason why Valentine’s day is the 14th. What happened was that each teenage boy would draw a name of a girl to be paired with for that year and the women were obligated to be with that boy under the Roman law. These relationships often led to marriage. Other stories are much more disturbing and the Romans would sacrifice a dog and a goat for purification and fertility. Then, the women were said to have been slapped with goat hide as it was believed to make them more fertile (hence the Lupercalia) thus leading into the name drawing and marriage.
Aren’t we glad to be living in the grand year of 2020 where women (in most countries) are now free to make their choices of whom to marry and when?!
Personally, Valentine’s day is seen as a joke to many but I still love the day and commercialization that society has put into it. I am a sucker for a sappy card and flowers…dinner date nights??? Count me in.
‘Tis the season for gift giving and gathering around the Christmas tree. It is a wonderful time of year. Now, I know if you’re like me – I care way too much about what gifts to buy and also trying to save a few pennies whilst doing it. It is quite the difficult task, especially if you just end up going to the shopping centre without a plan in mind. Here’s a few gift ideas for that special guy in your life, you can mix and match them to suit your man!
Let’s Talk About DIY Gifts…
So, it is totally up to you what kind of gift to get your partner. But, personally I like to be a *sappy* girlfriend and go for the DIY presents, or at least DIY ideas per say. To pull on those heart strings, think back to what you and your partner do together. Do you two play cards together? Do you love board games? Scrabble? What about physical activities like skating? When thinking of what to get them, try to focus on something you both love or have in common to do your DIY gift. A few examples could include:
Gifts Based on Interest
Then, try to think of what he likes. Is he a sports guy? Does he love finance? Maybe he’s a movie fanatic or video gamer? Here’s a few examples of some gifts based on interests:
Overall, you can mix and match these for Christmas, Anniversary, Valentines etc. The point is to know your guy and think outside of the box. I hope these ideas helped!
It’s not me…It’s you. Lately, you’ve been just a little too much for me to handle and I think that it’s best if we go our separate ways. You have such low energy, you’re always up in the night talking about random things – keeping me awake all hours, and leading me to be exhausted in the mornings. Stress. I’m truly sorry to be blunt but you give me the WORST headaches, it feels like a clamp is tightening around my skull all the way down to my back. These headaches and exhaustion just make me into such a grouchy tense person and I think that my other relationships and social life are suffering because of it. Not to mention, you’re not really that nice to me. We are constantly in an argument, I get a little overwhelmed and you just explode! I know that we have some good times, and maybe we can hangout when you’re feeling a bit on the motivational side but If I’m being honest, you make me sick to my stomach usually and I mean that quite literally. I just don’t feel right when I’m with you. My whole body just feels like a heavy weight. I think I need some time to de-stress, and possibly have a glass of wine. I need to establish more balance in my life and learn how to break large tasks down into smaller ones to avoid getting overwhelmed, I just need more organized life back. Stress, you’re probably really insulted but I promise you that we will meet again – but it might be for good reason this time, take some time to collect yourself and get back to being the good stress that I used to love. This is for the both of us.